hmm..im so bored now haha..today im a very patient person..super patient..i had never been so patient with things before..haa..today i pei my darling to go to the hospital for eye check up..the appointment was suppose to be 215 and we reach 230.and we waited..guess how long we waited..we waited for 3 and a half hours!!!just sitting down there can!i was like.....aRgHHhhHHhhhhhhh...i was saying to darling..isit our turn yet?dao wo men le ma?aRGGghhh y so long de?why huH?why?i was nagging at darling haha..hha...i was abit angry coz i waited so long..i cant take it..i feel so bored cold and hungry...i finally had my branch at ard 530...its seems more like dinner..haha..well...we were so hungry aha..i was so hungry that my leg cant walk properly..my jiao luan..haha..den darling say will hu wo..say wrong is fu wo!haha..

i was so hungry so we ate burger king..and know wad...im like a hungry pigg..haha..the cup of pepsi i str8 away drink and left half cup nia..haha darling drink still full wan...darling shocked sia..haha..ask me why i drink so fast..cant help it i was so hungry and thirsty haha!!

today i was suppose to attend service in church..but!!it was my gong gong dunno wad 49 day thing de la..i very sad..with?my family..my gong gong is a christian..there's no 49 day or wadeva..he is in heaven now...but well..my family loh..sigh..den having dinner...so my brother say if i wan to be filial i better stay at home today..so i dun wan to be unfilial..so i stay home and decided to go service and wed instead..and know wad..my bro just called me saying the dinner starts at 10..i was like..hUH???WAD??10???waa is like sooo LATE..well den wilson ask:even if u go for ya seminar,wad time will the seminar end?i sae 10+++..his ans:den? i was like...haha okie..den i ask him..u call me for?he sae nothing just call to ask if u are going for seminar...den i sae and u miss me right..he say ya la miss u lar..okie la..muack muack...i was likee..haha i miss you too!!hahah den sae byeeeee...and we ended our conversation haha!!

well that's all for now..will be back ltr to add more..haha

-gonE-

im home..ahaa..today i wake up very early..ard 10++ haha..im soso bored at home..so i went out...went where?town loh...with who??joanna loh..haha..went the same old place again..haha..so bored..i cant wait to for wednesday to come...i can take my pay..haha..den i can go and play haha!!isn't that great!!haha..

well today..i was being interviewed...by who?people who i dunno loh..through wad?sms loh..i was wondering where and how did they get my number wan..but..sigh..my this fren did not give away my number..somemore he was the last to know that his frenz had my number haha!!i received two strangers sms today..one was in the afternoon the other was just only..sigh...one keep asking me stuff...and boyfriend stuff..like..where you stay?wad are u doing now?wad school are you from?wad you work as?so ya bf same school as you?wad your age?your bf same age at you?your bf nv send you home mehz?so u got bf ma?!!!!sigh!!!!!! onli half a day...a totally stranger ask me all this..i was like SHOCKED..somemore i was having my lunch and was being disturbed by all this question...i was not here for interview lehz..sigh...

another one..send me one chinese sms which the chinese character very chim wan...i dunno how to read wan..send me simple chinese character i still can..but this abit too chim liao..haha..den ask me free anot all that...not as wierd as the first wan haha..

today my day went just fine..nothing much happen haha..well think i'll end here..haha

take care..

im here to drop another entryy again..hahaz..today..hmmm was quite a fun day for me..i can say that today was the happiest moment i had in the restaurant..not becos im quittin..is becos the atmosphere in the workplace today is all laughing and joking..everyone is so happy..not becos im leaving la..haha..even planned to go out tmr..hha!!

today i was suppose to start work at 1130am and guess wad happen??i overslept..i woke up at 1115..haha..so i called to change the timing to 1230 instead..haha..cant blame i was so tired and early in the morning i've got so many people appearing in my house and my ROOM!!the kids will wake me up loh..haha..and they did eventually..hahaz..den i waited on my bed for them to leave my house so i can have peace to sleep..coz it was only 8++ then...hahaz..and i fell asleep...so sweetly till i overslept loh..hahaz..but my bro was kind enough to wake me up by shouting [JESSIE!!!!!!!WAKE UP!!!!OIE!!!WAKE UP!!!!!JESSIE!!!!!]den i was so tired right..i feel like asking him to like..please shut up..which i didn't cos he was not disturbing me but trying to wake me up haha..see wilson so kind to me right..haha!!he is my good brother loh..haha..

i got changed at head to my workplace..haha..and my day went so smoothly..the philipino guy didnt go against me today..coz i did some [incase incase]like[yi fang wan yi]you know you know haha!!like..when i drying sausepan..he clearing table i will go and help..if not sae i no team spirit..den if his bar got too many glasses..i help..haha..i do alot for him today..haha..he went....SPEECHLESS..this guy wan ppl to help him wan..cant do this all by himself...sigh..today i named myself the hao ren..den my fren keep saying hao ren yao zuo dao di..so i help him oso loh haha...i was suppose to finish work at 930 but i help my fren to do her stuff which end at 10 haha..had sushi haha..den went home loh..hahazz..sianz...

know wad?my workplace uniform cost 50 dollars can!!!oh my gosh!!so ex!!!sigh..but not i pay...my salary pay first..they called it deposit..after returning the uniform can take back the 50 dollars..haha..hopefully i can take my salary asap..ahaha..!!!

well..today grandma went to visit grandpa..i didnt go coz of work..sigh i wanted so badly to go loh..sigh...

here goes my day today..busy day loh...

=flyyyYy=

27th November 2004

heez..im here again ahah!today i very tired worz..i cant wake up on time..today i was suppose to meet shar at novena at 2..but i cant wak up coz i went for overnight prayer meeting which end at 5 and i reached hm at 540am..i was so tird..and im so sorry to nai nai..know why??i forgot to tel her i will not be home on fri..den she waited for me...till 4..she sae she couldn't get to zzz...sigh...why i so forgetful wan...sigh...den today went novena at 3+ den go church with shar anne and fiona...heez...fiona is very friendly..haha...like being frenz with her..

today service was great...the message was so good...i just love it.hee...

tomorrow nai nai they all gonna go visit gong gong..i cant go...i gotta go and work..haiz..i very long nv visit le..sigh...i miss my beloved gong gong lehz...how?sometime sitting in the bus...looking at the clear sky..wondering how is my gong gong now?is he looking at me from heaven?is he protecting me?i miss toking to him..rem the daes i tok to him..his face will have those yesh huh look...with his eyes opening big big looking at me...listening to wad i sae..eventhough my fujian language is terrible..he tries to understand..i miss him...i miss his voice..his prescence...i miss everything abt gong gong...sigh...i really miss him...i cant forget him..he is so important to me...without with there's who else?sigh...

-gone-

hi people!im back..hahaz..this few days i've been lazy to blog hahaz..kinda busy lohz..sigh..busy with?work lohz..work is so...not interesting loh..sigh..i feel that sometime im at fault..but...i didn't mean things to end up this way..to this person..[hello..look here pls..is not that i have no team spirit..i wasnt in-charge of bar ytd..and you yourself oso can see that ytd wad a busy day..wads more im a runner..im busy going in and out of the kitchen...den take order..u think im so free isit..i know our station is very near..but..how can i help you when there is more and more work for me to do?can u please spare a thought for me instead of thinking for youself?i know you are busy..so am i..im here to work..not play..not letting you to keep going againts me..if u still upset with my huh and what..please loh..i already never say anything abt huh and what at all already..when im toking to you..i din even utter a single huh or wad!!u are in singapore..im sure everyone will sae huh what lah loh all this..if you are unhappy with this..please bear with it..we singaporeans are likdat..if u cant take if..leave it!you think you got temper i dun have...you think i always go peace with things..i may have patiance with most of the things..almost everything..but when i meet people like..i cant help but deep in my heart i feel like im gonna blow up..at the roll call ytd..wadeva i said hopefully you remember..its all recorded at the book..you forget go and read again..jus in case you are unhappy with me again..wadeva it is..i've said sorry...many times..for so many thing i was not even at fault..firstly..i din know that saying huh n wad is wrong to frenz..secondly i dunno that i bz with my stuff and still gotta help you when i cant finish my own thing..thirdly..this is the first time in my life i know that im lack of team spirit..lastly..you came in this line earlier den i did..but so wad?when i dunno anything i ask you..did u ans?did you help?when i was clearing the table and wad is left is to wipe the table..u saw it..did u help?all u know was to say me..was to keep judging me..was to keep telling me im wrong..did you ever tot that u are at fault?u are not king here..im not queen here..we both are here to work..u just stand there and let me do all the things..i think you might need some soul-searching..wadeva things that u do..all i did was to forget it..wad u did was to blame...blame and blame and blame...can u stop habing this mindset of me myself and i?please spare some thought for ya frenz..]

well..this sunday is my last day of working in this restaurant..i will miss the food at this restaurant..but not the people..and i am starting work soon at precious tots..hopefully they will post me to somewhere i prefer..God i pray that i will stop meeting people like this guy..i might not take it..i might just blow up right away..

today..woke up at 830 call joanna..this is the first time i call to wake her up..usually it was joanna who always call me to wake me up hahaz..and we went for our orientation..quite fun..just learn abt wrapping gifts..haa..

well...im gonna go church later liao haahz..today im staying in church for overnight prayer meeting...it end at 5am..haha!!service start at 8 till 10++..prayer meeting start at 1130..God please strengthen me..im a little tired..did not rest well this few days..*yawn*

take care people!!

im back..hmmm today woke up ard 230pm hahaz..den online...den..at 6 ot to go work..sianz..today i never really talk to anyone and smile to anyone there..got smile only to the guest and the people in the kitchen haha...i choose not to be so friendly to them..smile to them all the time think can anyhow treat me..but got talk to them lahz..hahaz..

today i tried not to say huh and wad to them...but i failed..i said huh for three times and what for two time..haiz..but well..after this week...i can forever sae huh n wad liao..coz im working for them till this sun only hhaa..coz im changing job liao haha...precious thoughts...im coming!!i told my manager im quitting..haha..she ask y...i say personnal committment..actually i dun like working there but cant sae that to her..so just sae tt loh..

haha..tmr i gonna work from 12-4..haha eventhough the timing very short..got money take why not? haha!i feel that God is very good to me...after that go home bath all that straight go church..!!tmr got churchwide bible study!!!yeah...tmr's svc is very impt..and good for me..talk abt how shall we live .. in the last days...good right?i will love tmr svc!!haha!!!im looking forward for tmr svc!!

[Indeed God is good all the time,all the time God is good!!]

know wad i got for my birthday from my cg?haha!!its BIBLE!!haha...can see tt my Bible is very.....old liao..haha...cover got little tear here and there haha!!and they are so good..know i like pink..bought pink bible...somemore from precious thoughts haha!!good right!!haha..

tmr gotta wake up early...dun wanna late like today...sigh..today i late 15min..tmr sure tio scolding from the other manager...sigh...

gotta go..

*gOne*

21 November 2004

whee..i'm home!haha..just got home from where?Sister angie house haha..went with shar to sister angie hse to take things..haha..today i spent my whole day at auntie agnes hse..swimming!!now my whole body aching!haha its been 3 years since i last swam..haha..den play with Lydia coz she wanna play loh..sigh..i jus wanna swim coz of my diet plan..but to let Lydia be happy..huixin and i decided to pei her play loh..all Lydia wans to do was to jump...jump to where?the pool..we asked her how many times she wans to jump..she sae thousands time!!i was like..erm....oooookkkiieee...haha..but then awhile later we did not play with her..we continued swimming and then...Lydia cried!!!sigh!!coz she was left out..sigh..but..my plan was just to swim!haha..nvm...i just play with her loh..haha..well...i had fun today haha!!

after swimming..went back to the hse den waited for aunty agnes and uncle francis cellgroup to end...but...it end 4 and a half hours LATER!!when i was like..half dead..coz im tired and there's nothing to do..haha..well..i almost went to my dreamland...haaz..but i didn't haha...

then..we went to meet shar and sister angie at tampines mall starbucks...haha sat down there and chat...we laugh and laugh..talking about all the jokes...like solar enery...haha!!and our body have mickey goofy minnie donald daisy..which are the part?guess...hahah..[shar pointing to her knee saying=this knee loh(disney)]we all laugh!!and alot of jokes la...and a joke of myself 3 years ago..haha i stayed at tampines...den while walking back home..saw a fifty dollar note..i was so happy..i shouted to huixin's family[hey fifty dollar!!}they all turn back quickly and walk to me..saw the note and LAUGH like mad!!!know why???coz...it's a hell note!!!haha...shar heard it as i was pointing at the "scene"where it happened 3 years ago..she laughed so loud...after that send huixin home and we took cab to sister angie hse and then go home haha..sigh...wan to watch movie wan lehz...but....no movie..shar see wrongly!!!haha..

on the 20th i received a phone call...guess from who??it's from PRECIOUS THOUGHTS haha..this shop i wanna work in haha...ask me to go for an interview...this wed haha!!i'm gonna go and quit the jap restaurant job..haha..well i took the jap job coz there no other people to call me..and im in need of clearing my debts!haa..now im gonna be debt free!!haha...Praise The Lord..amen!!

regarding the guy of the huh and wad...i decided not to talk abt him anymore..i should not judge anyone or anything...Bible says do not judge..so i better obey the Word and not judge..haa...to this guy...i forgive and forget..hope he forgive and forget too..well..im not perfect...and i am who i am..you are not to judge me too...keep your pride aside..God take this guy problem out of my heart!!i've been thinking abt this for few days..i dun wanna let it spoil my mood..amen..

dad called..he told me that he didn't receive my phone call..so nvm loh..haha he didn't see doc...he even joke with me saying[aiyo..doctor oso no time to see me arh..]i was like huH?father!!!!!!but well...i got nth to sae le haha..

im gonna end here...my whole body aching haha!!take care people!!

God bless!!

*Gone*

sigh..hi people..sigh~not i wan to sigh~is i really half dead..not so tired with work..but the people..sigh..im sorry for all this complaining in my blog..if i dun say out..i think i might burst sooner or later!haha!!!

well..as i was saying yesterday that there's this philipino guy angry...and yes he is angry with me..for?i was being told tt i have no respect..sigh...why no respect?huh?we are all working..we are workmates..i did not even insult him or wadeva..i smile like MAD the whole stupid time at everyone there!!im keep a very positive attitude loh.and i know im a positive thinker..trying to learn to be more positive..he not happy with me come and confront me la..no need to attitude wad...no need to tell others wad..oso not the others u are angry with...it is ME you are angry with...

guys..it's my only 4th day at this jap restaurant..wad can they expect me to do when i totally have no training session?????????wad la?huh?wad?wad?wad?im so upset with this world...wad a pathetic world im living in..im trying so hard to learn...Bible saes..ask and it will be given..im asking all da time..it is so good that one of my workmates help me out...helping me...telling me wad to do..now...almost the whole thing in the bar counter i know how to handle..i was even in charge of the counter today..all by myself..

back to this guy who was angry with me ytd..he was angry with me coz he asked me to do something and in the end i din do it..know why?how can i do two things in one time?each of us in the restaurant has our very own stuff to do..for me im the bar tender..i was suppose to make drink and fill drink and clean my counter...while i was carrying my drinks...to my counter...the guy..ask me to help him to take thing to the kitchen i said okie...and y i sae tt?coz i decided to do it for him after i finish doing my stuff which is less den five min!!!when i rush back there...manager ask him to take away the stuff...so he was angry...he tok to me..i ans...huh?....den i sae again...wad?but my wad is not jus WAD?is waaad?a longer wad...not those angry wad...somemore i was not angry..i was happy!!so is a happy wad...sigh..if u know me u understand my way of speaking la haha..so he was angry loh...everyone in the place know he angry with me except me...isnt this a stupid thing??he is angry with me but he din tel me the reason?he din even correct me or tel me that he feel offended of wad i sae...i really dun understand why there's ppl likdat??angry with me dun tel me...yet tell other ppl...somemore muz wait till the following dae den settle...stupid loh..sigh~God...why got ppl likdat dE?why ner?im really sorry to that guy if he thinks that im rude to him...i will be very ke qi with him the next time.i will sae sorrie can u repeat wd u've jus said or...pardon me?...i keep telling myself to be teachable..to be positive person with positive attitude...which im still keeping on till now..well ppl jus dun like wor..wad can i do ner?well i dun care..how do u treat ya fren?sometime u will sae huh?wad?ya ya loh likdat...and this is how i treat my fren...ppl jus dun like wor..wad to do..sigh..i dunno how loh..well that was ytd... but today different..he changed...not angry...even joke with me!haha..i was happy with tat!haha..but...in the end everyone thinks im wrong..coz of the wad..and huh...so i apologise loh..haha..well..saying sorrie wun kill me..haha..i will not huh or wad to anyone in my workplace...in case they sae i rude no respect..if this is no respect...sigh...my fren all no respect to me liao.so everyone come sae sorry now!haha!!..if so..even my teacher or senior oso loh!!haha!!but well..if you know me..you will know how my huh and wad sounds like...well..ppl luff at my huh...for my wad..ppl dun get angry...this is my first time in my 17 years of living got ppl angry with me for my huh and wad..haha!!kinda wierd worz..is there something wrong with this guy?think he got too much pride liao..hor hor...God hates the most is pride..hopefully this thing wun happen again...if not i will blow up right in front of him!he think i small small size ez to bully huh!oie i got my temper wan kayz..kan wo hao bully..think i smile everytime ez to bully..dun make me blow can liao worz..ahah..eventhough i know i might not haha!!!!!

today started work at 1230...i was not late actually...but the rule they set cause me to be late...i was there at 1215 but i late..why?coz i should be full dress n punch card at 1220 liao...in simple saying my work starts at 1220..and y they sae 1230?maybe say for hao listen nia loh..so i was late loh..nv get scolding la..haha...coz earlier than previous hahaha...lunch time im loner..eat at long john cos i dun wanna stay in the restaurant..haha..nothing much happen today...onli the prob of the prob of huh and wad..sigh...wei her ppl lai tt?can u jus try to know me ah?coz i am not wad u think lehz..im not those see u not happy type want lehz...im not those show no respect wan lehz..im not as bad as u think wor..im a new comer in the place and u dunno me tt well...why not jus try to know me ah?dun judge anyhow lehz..very sad wan u know..hope this bu yao zai happen..

well frenz..this is my day liao...shall end here..haha take care!!

oh by the way...we found DEAD RAT at my restaurant today..it cause my bar counter to be so smelly...the smell is like eeeewwwwww..it really yuck!!!!!!!!!

haha!!

be blessed!!

*mUAcKz*

woooopiieeee...im home!!!i'm home!!haha..finally im home..haha..today work went smooth..nothing happen..not that tired..hahaa..but i think one philipino guy angry with me ba?i dunno...he attitude problem..haha..but im not sure if he's angry with me or training manager..haha..well i dun care...tell u wad...this philipino guy hor..he and i cant communicate..the way he speak..i try to understand but he is so attitude that i dunno wad he was trying to sae...he ask me something..deni sae huh?sorrie..den he sae again..i sae huh?den he just walk away..but no harm repeating again wad..will he die?no wad..but well..i did not care much.haha this type of people wun affect my life..but i think ppl there think im mad..haa..i keep smiling the whole time..my face aching liao..haha..but well..i just want to keep a postive attitude...my life isn't so bad wad...somemore attitude people make me feel so sick!!i really dun like people showing attitude...u think u show attitude,people will be happy mehz...ur attitude will make others mood worsen loh..hopefully not mine haha..today my work very good wor..know why?coz..both manager not in!!haha..one end work liao another wan off day!!haha..!!dunno wad will happen tomorrow haha...lets wait and see haha!

heeheee...i let my maid watch my vcd..haha..Endless Love vcd..haha..see the show i wan to cry..sigh..den i tell my maid the story..haha..den i sae i tel u u dun have to watch liao haha..the gal so cute!!the guy so handsome!!haha!!

today kinda sad..haiz..well...people just dun care how the other party feels..well..i always meet people likdat..see how long i can tolerate this rubbish....

*siAnz*

*gOne*

bEeps..im back to blog again..sianz..i spent my whole day at home..so bored..im feeling so lazy today..dun wanna go out..haha..dun even wanna have dinner with my dear..sigh..sorrie dear..ya darling lazy to go out..hahaz..guess wad time i woke up today?the time gave me a shocked..hahai woke up at 515pm likdat can!!!this is my first time waking up so late!!i was like..phuaaaaa....it's so laTE!!guess i was watching dong ji lian ge till ard 7am likdat..tt y too tired to wake up hahaz..

today..i took pictures of myself again..haha..i was so bored..and one of the picture i took is onli my eyes..haha i upload it at my friendster..haha..look wierd but nvm..this is my first time taking picture of my own eye haha!!this is how i entertain myself again haha..cant blame..i just love myself too much haha..

im listening to 93.3fm..is like matchmaking session..haha..kinda like wierd..then talk abt relationship...wad is important in a relationship..sigh..i think tt is trust wor..haha..then the guy is 168cm.i think it's kinda short you mei you..it will be great if is ard 175 likdat bah..wonder how tall is the gal ahha..sianz..nothing to do now..so go n listen radio...sianzzzzzzzzzz...........ARgHHh

*papa..where are you?you never come online wan lehz..you never call me..making me worried for you now..i ask u to go see doctor did you go?u are coughing so badly le..sigh..oso not i like to nag at you...you are really coughing badly loh..sigh..can you try to smoke lesser?can you?for my sake?sigh..when i recall the time i saw u coughing..and the amount of cigratte you take in per day..my heart pain u know..you tell me is coz u dun have enough rest tt y will cough..u think you docter isit?when u start coughing so badly..this is a sign from ya body tell u,u are not well..wad more u are a smoker..heavy smoker somemore..sigh..dad..call me can..tt dae i called you..i was thinking you are working so i give u a miss call instead..but u did not return call to me..are you readin my blog?did you come and read my blog???

*i miss gong gong..i want to visit him...i wan to see him...*

hello..just got back home..today had a long day..hahaz..it's my birthday todaY!haha..ytd night was receiving loads of sms frm so many people haha..

this afternoon i was asleep soundly..and guess who came my hse?auntie agnes!!haha..den i received a phone call from melissa..telling me the time to meet all lahz..den auntie agnes was looking at my hp..going tru my phone i guess..i didn't care much..coz was arguing on wanting to watch movie haha!den...i received a sms...from my friend..then auntie agnes told me..she message one guy fren of mine saying why never wish jessie happy birthday..den the fren replied..happy birthday..i was shocked!!i didn't know that auntie agnes would actually sms my friend..haha!somemore i dun think in other family,the aunty will be so funny to do such a thing..haha.but well my aunty does!haha..den david told me saying:actually my mum also takes my phone and sms two other girls and said i love you!i was totally shocked!auntie agnes can...i know she's a joker lah haha..somemore i was on the fone..din really care much...den auntie agnes was using my phone typing something again!!know wad she typed?saying:thanks for wishing jessie..u deserve a hug from me..then wad make appointment...den she wanna type somemore i took the phone away..!!haha!!i deleted the message haha..terrible can!!my aunty!!then before auntie agnes leave my place she said...ask ya fren give me a call..i wad like huh?for waD?serious?den she sae ya serious..i was like laughing...but i dun care...haha..i know she will sure saying rubbish wan...haha..this is my wierd present from her i guess haha!!

ytd i opened my present from da gu...the vcd mp3 radio player..haha i used it straight away...was watching the korean show..dong ji lian ge..haha i cried...so ke lian the ppl haha..den i watch till 6+++ in the morning..haha crazy right haha..but well i like haha..tmr im not working...yeah!!i wun die!!yeah..haha..

today...went town...den the prob is ting amanda melissa joanna..didnt plan programme properly..den we went ps instead...but we meet at heeren liao..den reach le..say go ps...i was like...u are mad!but well...just go loh..we ate pizza hut!hhaa...den we chit chat...talk abt the days in sec school..the times we spent at our EFL camp..it was so fun...we were so close..i really missed those days i had with them..we laugh and laugh at our silly jokes...say each other...lame with each other...it was so fun..haha..today..ting eat the most haha..coz we are all so full..so we pass all the food to ting..eh..not really all lah..onli one more slice of pizza haha...we were joking till i wanna puke my drink out hhaa..den after eating...we went to..take neo print haha...and they can really knoe wad im thinking they know i will wanna visit the neo print shop haha..we took neoprint haha..den..ting and amanda gotta go hm..so they went off..left melissa joanna and me...so we went to coffeclub..at wisma..drink coffe...haha no la..they drank coffee but not me..im not a coffee drinker haha..so i drank chocolate freeze...haha..so we started entertaining ourself by using joanna phone to tak picture haha..den we luff and luff..and talk and talk..looking at handsome guys!!haha...some guys are really handsome...like one i saw at secret recipe..aha..eventhough my bdae celebration was kinda simple..jus going out..but as long as its out with them..im already very happy..haha!i really miss you all!

hee...mmm...i dunno wad to type le..i jus wanna go n watch my dong ji lian ge de vcd liao..lazy to type le..haha..take care peoples..

Be blessed!!

*fLy*

whoooooo...im home!!!went to Singapore Indoor Stadium for my Church service..today got carnival..can play game wan...got the bungee jump and mani games la..haha..i ate pizza..a slice cost one dollar haha..and ice cream haha..i only eat ice cream and one slice of pizza frm morning till now can!!haha..

today's service was very good..it was Rev Ulf Ekman preaching..he called for alter call..so many people went down...even frm the balcony seats..i was sitting at the east side...balcony seats..haha..right from there i can really feel the prescence of God..indeed God's power is very strong..haha..

today i see our church dancers...phwuaaaa~they are real pro dancers can..so xian mu them..i wan to join dance ministry oso hard can..so im thinking of joining children church ministry...well kids are cute okie..i love kids haha..so adorable..haha!!hmm im so hungry now..eating french fries hahah!!mmmm...tomorrow im going for service again...haha gotta wake up very early..ard 6.30am likdat haah..meeting jae at 7 at outram..haha..tomorrow night im gonna have dinner with my da gu...haha advance bdae celebration...haha..

sigh..my dad so many days never go online liao..i never see him online lehz..sigh..dunno wad he doing..dunno got listen to me to go see the doctor..he's coughing like MAd loh..making me worried for him..sigh..

today i think about my gong gong again..sigh...sad lehz..i still cant believe it lehz..sigh..

hmmm...1 day to go and i will be 17!!haha!!!time flies lehz..i gonna be 17 liao..getting older sia...how..sigh..old liao bu mei le haha!!

gotta...gotta zzz early if not tmr cant wake up to to SIS liao..haa..gonna queue!!haha..today SIS is full okie...filled with ppl loh..so many ppl can..waa...our church is getting bigger and bigger!!need another building liao hahah!!

*FlYyyyyYyy*

hello everyone..hee..how's your day?my day have been great!!with joanna deary with me..everything goes on great!haha..today..joanna called me at 12++pm...den i was like in my dreamland..den the dae before i said she call me i straight away wake up..oppss...i didn't!!haha..den she called me at 2++++..and im still in my dreamland haha...guess i've been working so tired le..so i zzz like pig haha!!i had a very nice and sweetest sleep ytd..it's been so long ever since i slept this well..felt that so many things had happen..some im able to take it..but some i tried to overcome it..somehow i failed..i still miss him..every day and night..he just appear in my mind..wadeva i do i will think of him..gong gong..wo heng xiang nian ni..i still cant let u go..sigh...wad i know i have to..coz right now u are in heaven..i will try my best...yupz..today..went our with joanna..this joanna very lazy..and is real lazy..she stays at Tiong Bahru and i stays at Outram..she can take train of bus..she took CAB!haha..she is lazzy haha..but im still sleeping at that time.keep telling her...orh i wake up le..i doubt she believe haha..den we went down town..went to far east plaza to eat my fav food...that is:THE CHICKEN RICE!!hahaa..after that i feel like eating YAMI yougurt..so we went down to..where?suntec!!haha..we bought the biggest one which is wad jumbo thing..the peace yougurt..haha...i eat the most..coz its jus so delicious lohz..den jo dun wan to finish..she sae to sour..where got loh..haha..but nvm..in the end..i finished it haha!!den..we went to suntec fountain to listen music see thos lighting..very nice la..romantic la..for joanna n me?erm...okie loh..not as romantic lah..then i keep taking pic of myself..i zi lian lehz haah..den jo keep copying sms frm my phone..haa..coz wanna send to her ahem ahem haha..jo..dun so sad with ahem ahem okie..im sure ya ahem ahem will show how __feels de lah..u have to wait la..u think everything will go your way mehz haha..if not..stay single la..single not good mehz?my life still good good wad..single better la..haha..den guess wad..someone called me..who that?that is darren.haha ask me out for coffee..still we went...not for coffee just mineral water haha..at where?ECP lehz..siao darren..go all the way ecp..den chit chat..tok abt schools all that then darren keep cracking jokes..i keep laughing..haa..think joanna oso laugh till mad haha..after that we went home haha..too late le..joanna need to be home early..so am i..haha..eventhough i no curfew..haha..

tomorrow im going to the Singapore Indoor Stadium!!yeah!!haha my chuch got carnival...hahah..anyone interested?haha...

hey guys..i've changed my blogskin..nice mah??i do myself one okie..i use wad frontpage do lehz..i see how wil gf do den i learn wan can..clever ma?haha..i do all myself..not the skin i do..i onli copy paste haha...but still i do de..haha..i first time do ma..so i feel very good haha..you cheng jiu gang u know?haha..

well..this is my day today..not so bored..haha..im still waiting for sakae!!joannA!when ke yi go sakae?marmie..when?haha...i know..when we are richer den now!!hahaha...

*counting down..still got 3 days more to go!!it will be my 17Th birthday!!haha..wish to be 17 forever!!haha

sigh..im still having flu lehz..sad ah..now joanna oso flu liao..haha sorry hor..haha u share drink with my ma..haa.nvm right?we care n share..you fu tong xiang right?haha

*fLy*

pRecioUs is yOu,i miSss yOu tHousAnd LoaDss.....

thank God im home!!sigh...today i had a very BAD day...somemore its only the second day im working i tel u im gonna sae all the things abt this restaurant loh..it's TERRible!!know why..for me..as a newcomer..i wanna learn..but how a student learn when noone is there to teach?huh?how la?this restaurant is likdat...they only call me and tell mi to start working ytd..den..sae wad time..but nv sae wad to wear all..i wore slipper..den they luff la..im fine with it..den they nv sae e yes and no's of the workplace loh!!is never okie!!so i dunno the rules n regulations there...completely stranger..i tel u ah..i dun even knoe the menu they wan me to take order can?most of the time i call ppl take..den wan me to pick up food frm kitchen when i dunno wad can i tell the guest when im serving them..in tony roma's we learnt the yes and no's in the restaurant..i even learnt the history of the restaurant..but at this jap restaurant..i tell u..i know nothing..not becos im new there..is coz noone teach me or even tell me..so now..i can ask..wad if guest wanna know abt the restaurant..it happen to me in tony roma..the guest ask me abt how is tong roma's came out?so in this jap restaurant..wad if someone ask me?i have to be prepared..and worst..they do not have training session with me..i cant learn anything...so now this job im doing is a DIY job..is madness loh..they dun let me take menu home and study know why?they dun have enuff menu?in a restarurant u dun have enuff menu???wad is this?shld be have then enuff wad?den they dun serve us food when we work there we must buy our lunch ourself..den if we wan..we can onli eat the rice there..our pay is only 4.50 per hr n is like during PH day[public holiday] we dun have DOUBLE pay at all..so today i work like mad loh...i work frm 12-10...i sat down only for one hr!!now my leg is so painful...it's aching!!!tmr im gonna be pai ka liao..joanna dear..ni ya zhao gu wo le..sigh..i have alot of things to sae abt this restaurant..sigh..the only good thing i can sae abt this restaurant is the food is nice..the environment is good..but the ppl the way they do things is TERRIBLE..like guest wan mayo...know wad my asst manager sae...hey dun put so much..need money wan...put little bit can liao..u see...likdat wan mehz...use finish buy one more loh...still need to gei gao for wad?sigh..then i late for 2 min today after lunch..coz was at staff room putting on apron then nv punch card so my punch card was 2-3 mins late...i got scolded BADLY can..im sorry that im late...but im already there but this time and they saw me...now scold me?for?late?but im there liao..before the time late comes...sigh...dun tok liao..the more i sae the more i sad...ppl u loh..i sae test will come...now come liao...test to my tolerance level..and my attitude of serving...and alot...must always think very positively..if not ah...will be super hurt wan...im onli on my second day of work...i heard so mani things abt so many differnt ppl..i already seens the good and bad ppl liao..second day nia...sigh..God..You must help me to pull through all this....i need You...AMEN!!!strengthened my legs coz they are so weak now...strengthened my body...coz they are weak oso...heavy thing cant carry ppl despies lehz which i dun care i jus wanna be stronger...my mindset..think more positively..and my attitude...help me God!!AMEN!!!

sigh..people this is my dae today..tiring and saddening i had...work like mad..no double pay sia..sad wor..but will..life is likdat got up got down..sigh...

tired liao im dying of aching everywhere..haha..actually only my arms and legs haha...

gonna go...rest well ppl...

take care joanna..jo u know wad...next time i work again..i will nv work in a jap restaurant..i will onli wanna eat jap food...now i like jap food alot..

take care everyone...be blessed...

*gonE*

i miSss yOu sOooOo mUch.....

haha im home people hahaz..today is my first day of job..working in this japanese restaurant..quite fun..but kinda have difficulty learning how to do e things..coz it's completely different frm the job i did last time..but i will learn..smile..

today i have to do things very fast which i didn't..tell u ah..they wash nv wash clean wan can...i wash clean clean sae i slow wor...sigh...today i first day..str8 away in charge of bar counter liao...stressed..todae i try eating wasabi..YUCKS...i regretted touching it..so errr...i dun like wan..haha..i ate my fav egg..dun wan chaiwanmushi isit?haha i ate two..they got 15 free wan i think..and then the sishi got alot lohz..if can da pao i dao pao loh..is two big tray loh..all diff sushi wan...yummie!!todae i keep telling myself that i must be strong..cannot weak weak wan..go work must strong..ppl scold let them..dun influence by their action..learn..and keep good attitude...this is wad i've been telling myself loh..haha..coz im like stress a little..haha coz i dunno wad to do..den i have to speak japanese..like [Irashaimase]..welcome in jap language..den must [haik] when i hear ding~frm the kitchen..haha..to let them know i've got it..tt the food is ready to be served..haha..i told shar how they wash..shar cant stand it hahah...

tell u ah..today i pek cek with myself..im like real ben can..haha..i suppose to start work at 12 todae den change to 6 know why?coz i wore slipper to the restaurant coz i dunno wad to wear ma..den asst manager laugh..i sae opps sorry er...i go back change den come again haha..i was like pai seh loh..haha..sigh..but the job okie loh..i still prefer tony roma's restaurant..haha..easier..can help my english speaking but jap...er..speak more jap language loh..haha...den today my clothing is super big wan..m size...the clothes i should take xs or s wan..dun have...haha so i wore m size de..haha was looking fat loh haha..but nvm...im onli working..haha..

people know wad?God answered my prayer again...i prayed that i need off on sun n mon which will be off frm fri to mon..coz before taking the job i told them i wan off day every fri n sat de..so i said i next week wan off frm fri to mon due to...AHEM..my birthday hahah.....den she sae okie hahaha...good right..haha..one thing abt my workplace is that most of them are not believer..dun believe in other gods..so guess i might not get any persecution at the moment..hhaa..but i know my test wil be coming..haha..im ready for me...

today the manager ask me to give our flyer at the mrt station..i got no choice so i sae okie..den i wan to be good..give ppl good impression..so i smile the whole day can!!!!!!!aRggHh...is real smile loh!!haha..i smile to even strangers!!!coz i giving out flyers..den some saw me act as if nv see me can!!now i know how the ppl who give out flyers how they feel liao..coz i oso got treat them this way..next time i know wd to do..just smile to them they feel better...todae some really dun smile loh..sigh...but im fast i smile n ppl just take haha...i give out almost half of the maybe 100 paper??haha not much..but must see ppls face..sad de can...attitude wan lehz..haha..but i know..i ren...i can wan..just smile...a smile wun kills..so i smile..which make my cheek tired!!haha so nvm...i was being rewarded by eating egg haha.the water egg..my fav..anyway i think im falling in love with japanese food liao..haha i like!!so nice...haha..

think i gonna stop here..tmr im working frm 12-10 haha...long hrs right?nvm wan..i can wan..with God's strength..i can make it de..haha..

so ppl...enjoy reading ya haha...

take care..

heyz..im back again..hahaz..today i woke up ard 230..haha..zzz so long..like pig!haha..to my surpise..i received a phone call..guess frm where?haha it's from a japanese restaurant..haha..im gonna start work tmr..at 12..Thank God..He answered my prayer..i've been waiting all these days..for a job..and it come..finally!!hahaz..having this job i will have more cash haha...coz got earn money mahz..and sun bian can keep aunt's mouth zippp..ahha..if not she open her mouth and start criticising me i will really die...of those hurtful words haha..Thank God..haha..

today i went out with darren...kinda surprise that he called me..haha ask me go out n chit chat drink coffee..eventhough i dun drink coffee..i still go coz i drink anything except coffee ma..haha..we went to eat our dinner at clarke quay..the dunno wad shop..haha..nv go there before oso..but near my house so im okie..den talk talk..while we were eating..we talk about this fren which i've seen before but never talk wan..so its like not a friend la..but i know him..his name is sean..know wad...he died..he committed suicide..he jump down from home..he is 19 this year..sigh..darren says noone know his reason for his death..he's a christian..and he's buried at cck cemetary...tt wad darren sae but not sure..darren even sae same blk as my gong gong..sigh..why so young want to commit suicide?sigh..he was disfigured coz he jumped..darren couldnt zzz tt few nights...think is very scary ba..

i was talking to this girl just now..she very young...11 yrs old..sigh..qurrelled with my cousin...funnie sia..she describ my cousin as fat to her fren..so my cousin was very sad and angry..i know he will be very hurt de..FAT this word very hurtful wan lehz..i used to have frenz saying im fat oso..make mi feeling so hurt..some of my family members oso sae im fat..when i was younger..i was hurt..haa..but now u sae im fat..im fine..fei shi fu=that wad joanna sae i think hahaa=so ppl..when u sae ppl fat..but think of how they feel kayz..hope my this cousin wun angry liao...forgive and forget...coz..[forgivness is the key to your happiness]...so ppl be gracious and forgive!!haha..we must learn to forgive and forget to wad ppl say or wad ppl do...if we rem the negative thing..we will be unhappy and we will think lousy of ourself..

sianz that all of now...todae entry very boring haha..nth to type so just anyhow type lohz haha..take care ppl..

God bless!!

*GOnE*

deaR readers..im back again..hmm..sigh..i got flu worz..weather so HOT still got flu..is really a pain in the neck lohz..but hopefully im recovering..haha..God heal me!!!AMEN!!!

yesterday went out with my darling..aiai..but first went to my aunt's place take my weekly allowance..sigh...God!!why i always get scolding for nothing??!she always scold me..but when dad is ard she will just keep her mouth SHUT!but will pour HOT water..almost cause dad n me quarrel..but im clever..i will not let her spoil my beautiful sweet relationship i have...she MUST be jealous..i am honest with my dad i tel him everything...i will not lie to him..she use my dad to not let me go church!!hurhur..woman dream on...slowly dream..it will not happen..going to church is my wish..i like doing wad i do..i nv mix ard with bad companies...isn't that a good thing..if i dun attend church n do wad i love to do..i would have mixed ard like i am in my past!she love me going ard drinking???she is real MAD!she loves me going out all day all night just club my life off???wasting my time at those eye pain lights...dancing with ppl i dun even know??i am wad i am i am who God calls mi to be..who she think she is?my aunt..so?i know wad im doing..i dun wan stay at her hse she dun have to scold me wad..she against me all day long..even having dinner with e whole family...just passing bowl very MA FAN mehz?will she faint just by passing a small bowl?will that cost her life?lucky my dad is not like uncle..scared of her..if not i will be dead...my mom will be controlling my dad if my dad is a kia bo wan..tt y i dun really like ppl frm china..they are always hurting me..having a step mom is madness...having a 17 years younger sister is worst..but i wun hate them...i wun dislike them forever...onli awhile la..sigh...wad am i thinking..God create ppl different...haha...i dislike ppl frm china but i love my sister my mummie..hopefully marmie wun be like aunt...if not dad will be sad...sigh..den aunt is always last minute thing...she expect me to cancel all my appointments last minute...wad is this?i have my life loh..she dun rule over my life...im sorry to wei ming that i didn't celebrate his bdae..but the point is i cant cancel all my appointment i've planned with my darling joanna last minute...aunt should have told me earlier...i oso wan to celebrate wei ming bdae...den she nag n nag n nag..i know she hates me...tt her prob..God give me strength to endure all her rubbish..amen!!haiz..hope all this will stop now..sigh..well..i have to endure...i want to be a stronger person..hahaz..den mi and aiai went to eat..at where??haha bugis..bugis where?sakae sushi!!haha..atually i wanna eat something that will full full wan...so i was thinking abt seoul garden..but ex la..so sakae loh..den...we each pay 12 onli lehz...at sakae somemore eat fullll wan..haha..the food there not bad..i like the chiwanmushi isit?the egg wan....water egg wan...haha..my purpose for going there is for the egg haha..jo is for prawn isit haha...ebi prawn..i think..haha..after that we went precious thoughts..find job..haha...fill form..den sae call us..sianz..then go hm..hhaa..

today i woke up ard 2++..was sneezing till i wake up frm my zzz..hhaa..i slept at 6 am ytd..haha...im mad..i cant zz....nvm no school..haha..i was watching horror show on channel 8 haha...tt y nv zzz...quite interesting leh haha..den i was resting on my sofa..coz sneeze till i tired haha..den shar called...so i go suntec find shar..mmm...den go pagoda street...haha...den go eat mac...todae i on diet..i ate one meal tt mac..haha..ytd eat too much todae mus relax haha...todae my dae was alright..noone spoil my dae...my dae got spoil once a week onli at where??aunt place!!hahaz...tt place is full of evil...eeeerrie...haa..no la...aunt isn't tt bad actually..maybe her words are hurting all the time...but that's her loh...i will bear with it...been bearing with it for the pass.......3-4 years i think...haha..if i can bear for so long..i believe i can bear for a longer time..haha...mabe be aunty oso mus bear haha..

im quite into JJ songs nowadaes...not bad his song..ahaa

tt all for todae...

take care pplz..

God bless everyone!!!

*GoNe*

yoz..finally..im home..just reached home from cell group..sigh i was late for cell group today..haiz..i dun wan to be late..all my fault..i know i will be late still wan to search for place to eat..haiz..wad happen to me?haiz...sorry ppl i dun mean to be late de..after cell group..we was having fellowship..haha..yasi was thinking with her frenz of how to get to the airport the cheapest way by 530..den everyone was quiet..know wad shar sae...u can wake up at 2 and start walking..everyone was like laughing haha...

regarding this person i was upset with ytd..we've settled our problems..we dun bear over night grudges..haha..but to tell u ah..i was utterly sad worz..me mood swing ba.sorrie abt it..haha..i really dun wan to repeat anything anymore okie..so u dun keep making me remind you okie..im sorry that wadeva i said hurt u..i didn't mean to..but when a person is angry...words just comes..i know i should have controlled..which i didn't..im sorry..i will learnt to control my words..but u should be sorry too...u know why...i dun wan to sae again...one thing i wan to tell u is..forgive and forget abt her...words are cheap..wadeva she sae she will get it frm God..but u dun just hate her likdat lah..kinda like not worth lehz..abt us...i accept your apology..[Apology Accepted]haha am i like Mr sam sng?haha..with his stern looking face staring at you..remember?haha..

aiyo!!i was at tampines just now..got up the train with yasi to go home..yasi stopped at simei to meet erm...i think her dad?den i continued my journey..guess wad..there's this MAN...he keep staring at me like im his mirror keep staring...i stared at him back...he still stared u know..den he smile!!!!!i felt disgusted..all the way from tampines he was sitting just opp me...and he was staring at hm right from the starting point at tampines till i drop off at outram..i was staring at him..i felt scared so i look away...coz he keep smiling...i feel so uncomfortable in the train all the way home..sigh..wad happen in world..??why are there ppl likedaT?wei ser mer?sigh..

well..that all abt today..btw..my family is opening a coffeeshop..dunno high class anot haha..aunty agnes sae i might work there...i dun mind..helping out in the family is a good thing u know haha..im looking forward for this day haha..ytd God answered my prayer...i felt so blessed!!

haha that all for today..haha take care people..be blessed!!!

5th November 2004

hey..im back here again..hahaz..todae was a painful day for me i can say..haha..wasn't feeling well..i am sick!!having a slight fever..sigh..my stomach wasn't feeling very good today..and it was so painful when service started..i have no choice so i ren..ren till i cant ren so i was praying asking God to heal me..faster so that i dun have to suffer the pain..and having headache sigh..guess it's been raining nowadaes that why im getting weaker..but im not weak wan okie.im a strong gal!..having flu oso..it's so cold..service was good today..my cgl was singing in stage..wearing pink top..very nice..very ying ren zhu mu..haha..today saw Pastor Sun..omgym...she is so BEAUTIFUL..eventhough she's pregnant..she is still a beautiful woman..

today my bro came frm camp..he shou le..can sae shuai le bah..haha..but still not very very shuai la..haha..we chatted abt NS life..he seems like he is enjoying his life there..haha.tt good..i oso dun wan him to suffer there..kinda miss wilson sigh..i miss my gong gong oso..everyday i keep thinking of him..i didn't wan to make myself sad..but i still out of somewhere somehow i will remember of gong gong..[i need you but you left me]sigh..i really need him..noone is there to support but he is always there to support me..in his eyes im always good..he nv scold me..he is always protecting me..since young...i really miss my gong gong..[cries]..wad can i do..now he is gone..nai nai is so lonely..today nai nai is a little sad i dunno why..she say she's worried for me..and wilson..she sae when i go out she will get worried..wad can i do so that she wun be worried..i didn't wan her to be worried for me everydae..sigh..i always like to see her smile..i find her smile is so sweet..whenever she smile i feel good..somehow i will feel peace..hope coming out from her..rarely see her smiling these days..i know she misses gong gong..i wan to visit gong gong but i dunno how to go..dun even know who wanna go with me..sigh..

today was kinda in a bad mood..this person loh..as my fren for so many years..knowing that whenever i give ppl a phone call..if u dun wanna answer u can always reject..dun have to let it ring..and i told you how many thousands of time..if i call u, u cant answer or u wan to zzz or smth that u cant answer.u can always reject..u dun have to let it ring when u know im calling..and u know that..i call str8 after i received ya sms so its very impossible that u are asleep..u were like a kid..do i have to repeat so many time of wad i wan to sae..do u need a recorder?my dear fren.we are frenz for so long..u shld understand me already..i dun wish to repeat all this anymore..and i always say that,i mean wad i sae..if u dun pick up,why do u buy a phone for?do u buy a phone jus to put to admire?u also dun like to repeat wad u sae.so am i..we both got our own limit..do u know what is called excceeded the limit?for so many times and i mean MANY TIMES..i dun wish to hurt our frenship jus likdat..but do u know tt u are always testing my patience and i mean is ALWAYS..frm secondary school days till now..my patience had already run out coz of ya actions..the more i sae the more i wanna boil..i really tel u soo many stupid times.u dun understand isit..u dun sms me okie..u dun ask mi question when i wan to ans u n u dun pick up oki..i dun call u for fun..i call u when i wanna ans ur question..but isn't it wierd when u wan an ans frm me but u dun pick up?why do i have to tell u this and that?why don't u put urself in my shoe?why?why?can u be sensitive to how i feel?can?GOD!!why?wei ser mer?when anyone and i mean ANYONE,calls me..they will 100% get me..when my phone rings i cant ans straight away i will rreject coz i dun wanna let the person wait and wait like .....and i always ans my phone calls..when a person call,and why did they?coz they need to tok to u.if they no need to tok to u,do u think they will call u?as for me,i called u coz i wan to ans wad u ask..but u let it ring...........................so long!since u like to sms..u can always sms me saying that i cant pick up all that wad?!and why u didn't??u just cant be bothered..we been toking abt this so long..i dun wan to quarrel jus likedat..it's kinda foolish..but u really loves mi to repeat all over again?do u know i feel so tired..so tired of everything..right now..at this moment i dunno wad i can sae to you..i dunno wad i can do so u will change..why u wun change after so many years..why?it's been so long..we've been close frenz for so long..we know each other..but why u seems to dunno me le?u seems to have lost ya sensitivity...u like to observe ppl reaction or rather actions..why u wun try to understand how i feel?there's so mani thing i wan to sae to you..but i keep repeating one same thing to you till im so tired to sae the rest..from now onwards..when u look for mi call me..dun sms me...i wun reply u okie//if u choose this way.i will have my way den..i dun have to always compromise with u...u will nvr understand how i feel..coz u onli care abt urself..can u dun be so selfish like her?i have enough of frenz likdat..im tired of all this people..can u dun be like them..can?for once?just change...pls..i really had enough..[you will never..NEVER understand how i feel coz whenever u find me you will always get me..there's no way for u to feel the way im feeling now..]u know these few weeks im been feeling real down..u still likdat..can u jus please...be a little..jus a little more sensitive to how others feel?im real sad...wad happen to u?sigh.........

HaiZ..wo bu xiang shou le..getting more sick...fa shao is very xin ku wan..sigh...

Ppl take carez...I pray that God You will heal me..and take all my tiredness fustrations anger sadness im feeling right now take them away from me..i wan to be back to myself...i dun wan to be emotional...i dun wan to let my flesh to take over me..AMEN..

waa..shar ask me go view something and know wad it saes?it saes,For everyone who ask receives;he who seeks finds;and to him who knocks,the door will be open.frm Luke11:10. shar ask mi to view this right after i pray..isn't God great?He answered my prayer thru shar...God knows...whatever im going tru now he knoes...he feels...he understand...God i really love you so much!!!wad can i do if im without you..

People...God is really great..if u didn't experienced God before u will nv understand how i feel..for who who did...im sure u definetly will..ppl..God bless!!!God will not forsake us..For He knows how we feel every now and then...HE knows it all...He's looking at us everyday...

waa...my entry so long haha...k k i'll end here..ppl man man read hor..hhaa...take care...love you all!!!

heez..hi people!im hui lai le!today stayed at home again..sigh..i want to work lehz..sigh..God i want to work..can gimme a job to do..smiLe..

yesterday my da gu gave me a gift..guess wad gift?it's my birthday gift!!but i can't open it now..haha must wait till the day comes..haha..but i already know what that gift..it's a hi-fi set..haha..can listen music and watch vcd de..good hor..i've been wanting that for so long..think since i was in sec1!haha..isn't God great?what i want i will have it..it's jus that i have to wait patiently...haha..but my patience will never run out if i'm determine of wanting somethings..haha..good right?haha

today aunty agnes called..asking me to go her house to swim!!haha..i like!!can sun bian go shai tai yang..haha..i'm jjust too fair..i feel like im a ghost loh..sigh..im gonna swim swim swim..i wan to lose weight i wan to be 40 kg!!my ideal weight for this year..my goal for this year is 40kg!!still got 5kg to go..haha..wo ke yi de!!!btw..im not mad hor ppl..shar sae im mad!!haha..skinny mei mei ma..girl like to mei mei right?correct?im sure everyone like to stay the best they can be..so am i!haha..it's been years since i last swam..after i stopped going for my swimming lesson..i nv get any cert le..sigh..worst!!i lost my GOLD cert!!!sighhhh..gold cert very hard to get de can..must train n train n train..i trained like mad everyweek..now i cant even swim10 laps loh..amybe 5 laps oso cant..sigh..must go aunty agnes house more often..swimming is good for health!!haha..so ppl..go and learn swimming la..haha..

well...nth much i did today..sleep til like 3pm than wake up..im like WAD?so late im still sleeping!!but cant blame...too tired..somemore past weeks nv really have peaceful zzz due to 141004...haiz...now im still missing him..is so bad loh..that i cry every night...sigh...cry to zzz can..i cant let him go till now..i miss him..

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hello people..im here again..feeling so bored..i want to go and work..why noone employ me..sigh..no experience can learn oso wad..why?why mei you ren gimme a chance to learn things?sigh..

today Joshua and i went to novena..Joshua accompany me to look for job..sigh..went to this jap restaurant..the pay is like 4.50/hr..sigh..no choice i said i dun mind the pay..can work im happy..den went to charles and keith for walk-in interview oso..they wan me work full time..that is a nono thing loh..sigh..den went to fill form and then eat den go straight home..my day today was so boring..sianz..today im so bored..and guess wad i do to entertain myself??haha..i took pictures of myself!!haha..i still dunno how to load with my entries...so i load it at the side again..haha..

today grandma is going to zzz with mi haha..so good..haha..the maid scared to be lonely so i be good i let her zzz in my room together with grandma n mi!haha..

well ppl..nothing much happen today..so i dunno what can i type in here..maybe today jus a boring day?haha..but i enjoyed taking pics!!of myself somemore!

*sigh*went to friendster and browse my frenz fren list..sigh..i saw this person..remind mi of my bad past..haiz...i cant take it so i just cried..haiz..i hated my past..i nv wan my past to be likdat.. i hated it..i afraid that ppl will see me badly jus coz of my stupid past..im in the present...my past is dead..but by seeing this person..i really...cannot take it..God wad can i do now?haiz..i dun wan to feel this way..it's been so long since i rem abt my past..now..it came back..how?

I HATE MY PAST!MY PAST IS DEAD!WHY I CANT FORGET ENTIRE OF MY PAST!

hee..i'm here..actually wanted to blog in earlier just now..i was figuring out on how to put picture in my entries..but i can't..picture too big!hhaa..wanted to show u guys e picture of me and shar in sentosa today..eh..somemore i dunno how to get the pics done.i just load it at the sides..haha..take a look at it pplz..

Shar and i went to sentosa today!haha..we sat cable car to sentosa..i was so excited..hahawe took pictures..we went to the underwaterworld..we saw Dory..but where nemo?haha..dory very playful lehz..keep swimming..shar wanted to take a better pic..but difficult lahz haha..the main topic for today is SHARK..i wanted to go to the underwaterworld to see SHARKS!haha..n great whites..but dun have..only got a fake one..haa..the fishes there are reallll bigg fish man!haha..we sat cable car..i was like looking at the beautiful sea..the scenery was so beautiful...haha..cant wait to go again..there's alot that we do..today we were like so funnie..haha..somemore shar very long nv take train le..so we took train to redhill..coz wanna go to IKEA haha..so took pictures of shar..haha..so faRnie..guys..go take a lot at shar's multiply..got the pics..so nice n farnie haah..

after IKEA i went to shar's house..shar bought this table to put tv de..den it weighed 36KG!!HEAVY can!and we took taxi to shar place..one thing sad abt today was that we met a very unhelpful taxi driver!!somemore it's raining today!!shar didn't want to waste money for the delivery charge..so decided to take the table hm..when the taxi come..e driver did not come down to help us..when he drop us..he did not even come down and help us..he let shar n me help ourself..but the prob is..the thing is so heavy..we need a man to give a helping hand..know wad the driver said?[i cant help u..i dun have umbrella]i was like huh?wad ur prob here..sigh..what has the world gotten into?why are there ppl like this cab driver?sigh..it's a long story..say le i oso angry..sigh..

during nighttime..we went to catch a movie...Shark Tale..very farnie...very nice..haha i like..haha..Today everything is really abt SHARKS..the movie shark tale got great white shark..haha farnie show haa..ppl must catch that movie haha..sigh..as for the pictures...i'll find a way to upload it..haha

that all for today!!

listening to JJ song..not bad..

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